Hi! Remember me?! I’ve been away a while haven’t I!
I haven’t put anything on the blog since October (how long ago!) so I thought I’d try and explain why…
I went back to work after maternity in September which I found just as difficult as I expected. I wasn’t the mum who looked forward to going back to work for the adult conversation or the hot coffees (not just because I don’t drink coffee), I was the mum who worried that her baby would cry every minute at nursery or with Grandma. Of course that didn’t happen, and she settled at nursery and with my mum really well, but in the weeks leading up to going back to work I found myself randomly crying at the thought of leaving Grace. I was NOT ready to go back!
I also struggled adjusting to the pace of things at work. While I was off there had been a restructure so my role had changed slightly. That, combined with now only working part time left me feeling really lost day to day. I felt like I didn’t really know where I was or what I was doing.
A couple of weeks later, I started “Blogtober” which was a challenge to write a post everyday for a pre-selected topic. I think taking on this challenge totally overwhelmed me. I had loads of things in mind to write about, but nothing fit the topics for “Blogtober” and I panicked… before I knew it I was behind on the posts which started to drag me down.
Cue Christmas stress and overwhelm! I was NOT prepared for Christmas or feeling my usual festive self as Christmas approached so I decided to take a bit of a break from the blog and pick things up in a few weeks when my head was more sorted. But it didn’t really get there. The longer I took away from the blog the guiltier I felt for not posting anything, but I now didn’t feel like I had anything to say that was worth writing about which turned into a bit of a vicious circle.
But here I am. I’m back. I still don’t feel like I did before I went back to work, but no harm in giving it a go, right? I just need to get my bum into gear, get focussed and get planning. Let’s get going!!